For good

You know what gets on my nerves? When somebody says that everything has its reason and all happens for good purpose. Well, I am one of those annoying people who say that actually. I keep saying things like that because I need to calm myself down and make life easier. In reality, how do I know that it is for good or nothing happens without particular reason? I do not. I just have to believe in it, haven't I?

This post is going to be less positive or optimistic. What really makes me happy is smile upon a person who's greeting me like my neighbour, old Kurdish woman, who always forgets my name, but remembers to smile at me and wish me good luck. That is definitely for good. And after that I always have wonderful day.

No matter how strong we are, we need human support, human love and understanding to go on living and breathing, if you know what I mean. We need each other to talk and to listen. But hey, who listens to each other these days? No-one, that's why everyone goes to the damn psychologists and waste fortunes to be heard.

I wanna be heard. Probably that is the reason I blog. I hate talking when I can write instead. And I love smiling and having fun because in the end - everyone is same, dead and sore.
I am not and never will be afraid of get embarrassed, I am going to be what I am and I am not bad person, am I? Sure, you've seen better ones, but I was born for some purpose, wasn't I? ;) So, world has to accept me as I am because I'm for good here.

HAPPY EVERYTHING!!!

I never liked holidays before I got closer to religion.
It has been my second year that I have been celebrating various Jewish holidays: Rosh Hashanah, Sukkot, Purim and now Pesach (Passover) is coming soon.

I always had this thought that celebrating something was boring, and I hated saying: "Oh, happy this and happy that!". I would have rather stayed home alone and read some book. But now I find them very amusing - because it is not only about saying merry things, or overeat the food (you can't do that on Pesach anyway), it is about finding oneself, the reason of one's being, thinking about one's self, improving character and analyzing what is better for one, how to live and which roadway to take for future. When I realize this, I understand why I fell in love with my Jewish holidays. Above it all, nobody can tell you to be happy unless you do not feel happy and grateful towards G-d and His creation. I am truly happy now.

HAPPY FINDING YOURSELVES, DEAR READERS OF MINE!

Look at me! Ginger!

I should tell you how I love Geri Halliwell. If you don't know who she is, which I doubt very much, I shall inform you that she has been the true girl power member of the British girl band "Spice Girls".


She was 24 or 25 when got in Spice Girls and became the main figure of the band. Geri was the one to claim group's GIRL POWER image. She had this low and harsh voice which made her stand out the crowd. She is bold, crazy, funny and never afraid to be embarrassed. I appreciate her latter character. Good luck, Geri, you'll always be ginger in my heart :)

I should be Lucky

I missed St Patrick's day this year, but I am sure luck won't miss me.


I feel like this sweet kitten hunting after butterflies or maybe little birds... I love cats, they're only animals with inner freedom and power to be what they are.

And my dancing week goes on. Reggae, yeah! Not only - I dance whenever I hear the music and energy just flows in my muscles.

HAVE A GREAT WEEK END!

Maria, what had they done to you? :(

I love Hemingway. Not only love, when I read his books I feel like I am there and I can see all his characters. I've been reading "For whom the bell tolls" lately. This book has become kind of life guide for me. Its characters are so tragic, and poor, and they believe in Republic. I don't know, it depresses me a lot.

I'm not going to tell you about the idea of this book, you just have to read. Well, Holden Caulfield never really loved Hemingway, but what did 16 year old boy know...

You know what I like most? That Hemingway lets his reader to fantasize and imagine the heroes just as one wants. So I have made up Robert Jordan and Maria in my mind. But it did not last long. I just saw this poster from Hollywood movie based on this book. Just fancy, young spanish girl who had been through so much, had suffered and all, is played by Ingrid Bergman. Unbelieveable. Gary Cooper plays Robert Jordan. Well, he's never been my favourite one anyway, but Maria, gosh, she had to be someone else. Not blonde and aristocratic Ingrid Bergman, who stars in Casablanca and movies like that.

I am disappointed. And I am never to see that movie. Never.

DANCE, willya?

Dance Dance Dance
Dance if you're blue
Dance if you're down
Dance if you're mad
Dance Dance Dance

English Love

Been making videos lately :)
Oh, and I have just decided that I like British men :D :D :D with their accent and all. It is silly to say that when you love Ireland, but you know us girls, we never set limit on anything. Saw "Metroland" on Thursday, that must be the reason of my sudden British excitement. Christian Bale is so cute with his ginger beard and white underpants.

Shabbat Present

I made this video yesterday. Once my friend Dina sent this song to me and I wanted to share it with others so much that uploaded on youtube.

So, this video is dedicated to my dearest friend Dina and all the people who enjoy keeping Shabbat and other mitzvot. You are all special.

SHABBAT SHALOM!

Beauty

I don't know who she is, but she's so beautiful and sad, isn't she?

Apres moi le deluge?

This wind is killing me. Today when I was driving back home from bank thought to myself, what if this wind means the end of the world. Would I care?
Well. Not really. Apres moi le deluge, as cold hearted king used to say. Not only after me, I think I won't really care if the end comes right away and perishes the world for good. What will I know anyway?

So it is really stupid to think about nature craziness while you have no power to change it. Sometimes this nature thing really bothers me and makes me feel weak, but in the end I realize that everything has its reason, so when I hear the wind against my window, I should think about what have I done in this world, have I achieved all that I've always wanted? Or am I just the same baby one who came here and did nothing but eating and defecating?

I think I'm more than that. I should be.

I miss Winter

Winter, dear, please stay a little more!!!