Friday, February 26, 2010

Purim Sameach


It's been quite a week - full of work (still going), full of emotions, wind and crazy e-mails. I like it though, better be working than sitting and crying your heart out, you know.
I think my previous post was really good because I like rereading it actually :D I almost never re-read my posts tell you truth, but this time I did.
Even though I have been smiling less lately, I hope I'll work on it soon.
Festivity of Purim is about to enter my door and I have to be glad + mysterious like queen Esther... let's see how am I going to manage it.

Have a great week end, Shabbat Shalom & Chag Purim sameach, which means enjoy Aman's ears & drink as much as you can!!!

Love,

Me

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Brave Queen

Buddhists believe if you wear these earrings all the time you avoid to reincarnate into donkey in your next life ;) Buddhists really are cool, aren't they. But I am not one of them, I used to think that maybe one can really find serenity in Tibet, but you know what? People are same everywhere and if I got bugged by them here, Tibet won't be exception, I am sure.

One of my Irish friends said that she'd like to leave that 'shit hole' (that's what she said) and go somewhere where she could live freely and would not be government's slave. I felt sad for her because she can't get away from that wherever she goes. If you are rebellious person and can't get along with system and people - there won't be a place to dwell in and be comfortable.

Purim's almost here and I think more about that. I think about Queen Esther being courageous and faithful to G-d, to her people. She did not try to run, did she? Esther stayed there beside the strange man, faced the difficulties and accomplished her mission for good.
I never liked Purim, tell you truth. It was not my celebration to say so, I could not understand nor feel something about it, but this year I learned that everything has its reason, G-d always knows what to do to us, where to take us and what kind of obstacle bring before us. I thank Him for that. I'll be there where I have to be - to serve G-d, complete my task and be brave like dearest Queen Esther.

PURIM SAMEACH!!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Canção do Mar


While listening to Sara Tavares and Dulce Pontes, I think to myself - what if my grandmother would have been Brazilian. I'd had a dark skin, green eyes and much curlier hair than I have now. And I would go to the Ocean everyday. I would have been most crazy Brazilian girl ever.
Then I would buy a ranch and have horses, cows, everything on my own. And my grandmother would call me: Luara, or maybe Selena... or Dulce :))

I would have voice like Dulce Pontes and ocean would embrace me with love... Brazilian grandma, why don't you call & say: 'My baby girl, come on over and take care of me'. I would not think twice, take my black suitcase, green rucksack and dash over the ocean, I really would. You just call.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Normal People


Just saw Woody Allen's 'Crimes and misdemeanors'. I absolutely adore his movies. I have seen almost all the movies he has made. Sometimes you watch movie and realize that it is so simple - regular people with their lives, they talk like normal, they walk like normal and Woody Allen can see all that. There are so many great directors with all their styles and points of view, but Woody's not like anyone else. You just listen to his dialogues and you don't get bored as it happens in most of other movies. There are no romantic pauses, no deep looks or luxury - it's just real life of normal (or not) people who live everyday life, they win and lose, they love and hate, sin and do good...

P.S. I should note one thing though - Woody's last movie 'Match point' is nothing but kind of remake of that 'Crimes and misdemeanors'. I love 'Match point' as I like Scarlett Johansson, but Mia Farrow and Martin Landau are just swell.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Dj Lapin :)

I found this video today and been listening to it all day long. It is so sweet about Lapin (rabbit) party :)

ENJOY!!!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

In my head


Oh, G-d. I just realized that I'm being watched :| well, not by the One above, but by people around the world, who read my blog, express (or never) their opinion and look into my brain (and soul maybe). I knew it before, but when I read other blogs I can understand that I cannot write what I really want and mean anymore. Because people will start to call me, e-mail me about my mood, why, Sophie? This and that...

Suddenly I feel like a lost child of 70's really, who struggles with life in this damn 21st century. Maybe I am very ungrateful person, but I just wanna be happy and I try to be... sometimes it just doesn't work that way.
I know IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD!

February 10th and I am still that Salinger girl who I used to be... trying to cope with all that comes my way. No explanations.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Cruel Capitalist Lass For A Night

I want this dress:

I want these shoes:



I want this bag:



And I don't wanna sound too shallow, I know just fine about poverty and diseases in the world... I have been one who's been fighting for all that, but let me be cruel capitalist lass for a night, will ya?

Monday, February 8, 2010

Positivity


I just looked over my old posts and noticed how optimistic I am even if it feels sad and low. I liked it. I am quite good girl :lol: I can handle it, G-d will help me and I'll just keep running up.

Oh, today I remembered about my travel passion - South America and Australia. It's so funny that I like these 2 different continents, but I am so sure I could live on both of them.

And I believe if one wants to go somewhere very much she can go... :) So if I post from Montevideo or Brisbane in a few months, don't be surprised, it's still me :)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

He let it snow


There's a big snow in Tbilisi. I am so happy. Snow makes me feel free and calm. I was dreaming about it in Berlin and here it is. Yesterday, when I woke up and looked out, I started dancing with joy - SNOW SNOW SNOW!!! I walked out a lot, smelled and tasted snow, and suddenly felt that G-d actually loves me. He made my dream come true and showed me - everything has its time, you just have to wait and do everything you can, and what can you do? I keep asking myself... praying, reading, writing and believing that He will see where I am standing and waiting. Well, it may sound little pathetic, but that's the way I feel. And believe me, I am not romantic and all. I live and know that we all have to pay for all we get :|

Thanks for this amazing and whity white snow, Lord! You made my days... as You have made myself :)

Friday, February 5, 2010

The Day


Shabbat's coming in half an hour.
I have to prepare candles, rip the paper, set the table...
And I'm still here posting this for you out there :)
I'm having a swell day :) Last week have been good and bad as well. It started with good - Naomi's engagement; and in the middle of the week I had terrible nervous breakdown because of my visa. Then I had a conversation with Dina, who helped me to cheer up and see the cup half full. So I accept Hashem's will whatever it might be.
Plus, I'm having PMS and it has direct connection to my mood.
I am happy! I needed a whole damn week to realize this, and dearest friend who showed me what really matters.

Shabbat Shalom & happy week end to you all!